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03/07/2009 2:57:06 (FRIDAY)

Today is the last day i will resting myself to death. After that is a lot of hard works! As I’m listening to lastest single from Kelly Clarkson titled ALREADY GONE, i can’t wait to see and through what will happens in Semester 3. Is it the turninf point of my life? I don’t know. Semester 1 is the semester where i left the old Jackson and then Semester 2 is where i got to feels meaning of fun. I don’t know this time around. The road are so diverse in front of me, too many choices that its more easy to choose wrong direction towards the destiny. Or will i take the usual way which i always take? I don’t know, after a minor failure in last semester, i have to improves a lot this time around, which is :

1. Money Matters – Its been two semester i’m having bankruptcy (help me with the spelling!), i don’t want to have hatricks of the same problem. One is enough. I will tone down the way i’m spending my money on clothing although i loved clothes! Everytime i see terrific clothes, i will warned myself that i already have the same fashion and those in my closet is way better. Or better to not go to the clothing outlets.

2. Too Much Desa Ilmu – Ever since i lived near the gate to Desa Ilmu, my face is one of the most frequent faces. Its not good since its wasting time sometimes. Last semester is truly stopping me doing what i’m doing in Semester 1. This semester, i live further from the gate, i will be a collegeman. You know, kind of person who only exist in the college level except the class of course. I will always at the washing room and my room because that how i spend my life in Semester 1 which make me study a lot because i have a lot of time and really relax mind.

3. Leave Me Alone! – Last semester trully fame-seeking! I want to step down little bit, avoid being the trendsetter and runaway model! I know its sound cocky, but that’s the true.Everywhere i go, especially when i’m alone, all the people will look at me, i don’t know why but i like it. But not anymore. I don’t like the attention anymore, i will love the attention that worth the attention. By just walking towards food courts with all eyes on you is something not-so-worth-its. I want the attention when i achieve something that i happy about it. Not because of piece of crap!

4. No More IF.U.C.K Amy & GaGa ! – I don’t like it anymore! its just don’t fit me. Last semester maybe (since i transformed to my alter-ego Jackson ‘GS’ John) , this year i will be more Eastern. No more cursing unintentionally. Its just not me. It bring me down which almost destroyed my friendship with Ummi, Tita and Rahimah plus myself!

For that, i hope my resolution for next semester will be achieved really well cause there no room for second mishaps. I believe in myself and i believe in God. God bless me.

04/07/2009 3:28:07 (SATURDAY)

Its the day i have been waiting for. Today, me and my sister will have a adventure again! We will departing to Kuching at 8PM using bus! Arghh! Another 14 hours in the bus alone! It will be tiring sometimes and frustating (like the one we have when i’m in Semester 1) but i hope this time around will be full of fun and enough rest. I don’t want to stress myself before i should when i arrived there. Today is the last post i writing from our home because after this i will write from my college.

I’m ready for this adventure starting from 8PM tonight! I’m ready for superstardom and superfallen. Good night everyone! Peace!

05/07/2009 22:22:41 (SUNDAY)

Hello! Its been a long and tiring 14-hours journey from Miri to Kuching. Now i’m at Kuching! A lots of thing have been slashing at me since i’m arriving here though the day ended very well. I’ve met my best friend forever just now. We all laughing all the from UiTM to Everrise to UiTM because we don’t have anything to worry about yet. I’m tired to looking back of what made my day stressed! Good night!

06/07/2009 22:27:26 (MONDAY)

Today is in history! I shave my head bald! I never done that before in my entire life of 18 years! The reason why i’m shaving it all was i’m tired of looking like a pretty cute boy. So, why not become an ugly looking boy? My life too short to experience small things. I want to be everything, feel everything!

Today also the first class of Semester 3. So far so good.

07/07/2009 21:19:34 (TUESDAY)

Hey yo! Its the second day i’m going to class for this semester and i’m bad. In Semester 1, i was known as the first person to come to the class and today for class CSC203, i was one of the few person to come a bit late at 7.50am and then for class MAT149 which start at 2.00pm i come at almost 2.20pm! Its the second time around i come late to class for subject MAT. I was so embarrassed! This thing should never ever happen again! That’s why i don’t want to come back to college if there are any class after that.

12/07/2009 12:15:42 (SUNDAY)

Its the first week i been here in Kuching and most of it was a blast! Yesterday was my first day going out to Kuching to watch ICE AGE 3. The movie was funny and suitable for all ages. Then on the night we sat at the canteen to have a light talk where we having fun. The last time i was laughing that hard was about 2 years ago. Its good to be so relax.

18/07/2009 9:12:40 (SATURDAY)

Hey! Its the second weekend i already been here in Kuching. Before i realize, its almost Raya! How things go so fast! Anyway, last night was a sleepest night. I slept from 7pm to 10pm and continue to slept from 1am to 8am this morning! Maybe i don’t have enough sleep on the weekday so i’m reloaded the sleepness.

Between my sleep, i don’t find peace actually. My roomates (two of them is illegal although they have their own room but refuse to live there.) was making unrespectable noises! As one of the owner of the room, they have to respect me even though i sleep early. Its not that they can’t talking at all when i’m sleeping but please minimize the noise. Someone is trying to have rest here (not to forget to mention, i have flu!). i’m their senior too. Maybe i’m looking like an angelic senior, but please, i’m not! I don’t care if they older than me, but i’m still the one who taste and see everything more than them!

p/s : For one of the roomate, your voice is a horror to me and like a piece of trash. So, don’t think you sing well.

18/07/2009 23:42:49 (SATURDAY)

Its double entry for today post. I have a good day actually. I’m so pleased and proud with the words from Ray. Haha.. His words is so honest but sorry, i’m not really that kind of person you think. I’m bad. Really bad. Haha.. Tomorrow will be catch up day as i have many work undone like 203,149 and 101. Wake me up tomorrow!!

20/07/2009 18:43:39 (MONDAY)

Today is the first day of the three weeks i have been here. No sign of money by PTPTN until today! OMG, i almost bankrupt already! Rumours said that the money will be receive only after Aid!!! This cannot be! Please be tomorrow.

After the class finish today, me and my usual BFF (except Tita) sit down with Ray. I feels good after we talk face to face since the day he wrote about me and my BFF in his blog. Thanks Ray. After that we go to back of Mulu College and realised that the day was so hot although its only at 4.30pm! its feels like 12pm! We straight go to KFC after that to cool down before we are, yes, attracted with the meals. We ended having dinner there. Then we go to Jinki to take our photocopy order and i so pissed off! The book which Umi and Imah photocopy only cost them RM1.30 while i paid for the same book for RM6.30!! The only different about the book was its photocopy back to back while mine not!! This is how its should be photocopied but the one who doing the jobs is hopeless!! OMG!!

20/07/2009 19:32:16 (MONDAY)

Its me again. I cried just now when i listened to a song called PERMANENT by David Cook. Its get very touchy when i read and understand the lyrics. The song is written by David Cook for his brother who had cancer and died just between end of last year or start of this year. The lyrics was so honest and very relatedable(?) to me. I think of my father when i listen to this song. OMG. I’m so sad now. Below is some of the lyrics which is very powerful to me.

“Will you think that you’re all alone today? When no one’s there to hold your hand. And all you know seems so far away. And everything is temporary. Rest your head. I’m permanent.”

“I know he’s living in hell every single day. And so i ask oh God is there some way for me to take his place. And when they say it’s all touch and go. I wish i could make it go away.”

My dad is okay right now and he’s just need to check his health every month. Love you Dad.

21/07/2009 23:20:42 (TUESDAY)

Today is one of the day that will define Semester Three. Its so historical. Not only Kay will make this as lessons but everyone. Salute to Bro Naim and his gang for doing such action to us. I’m not being mean to Kay but please Kay, take that as a lesson. Like what i always keep on my mind, enough is enough. Don’t ever make it twice. Bro Naim doing that for your own good since someone need to wake you up. You have gone too far at the start of this semester (not to mentioned, last two semester). Hope you will be a better person the next time i see you. Everyone will give you a second chance, i believe (since we already have someone to hate for, hehe..).

For the record, me and my gang are not bathing or going back to our college from the class started in the morning till the end of Refreshment Night at 10pm!! I don’t think we will do it again but its will be memorable. How we works really hard during our campus time. Haha.. Like one of my favourite phrases, “THERE IS FIRST TIME FOR EVERYTHING.”

p/s: Kay, i ready to forgive you if you stop being the old bad you.