Hey guys.. since FS lost its user after the emerge of FB, i don’t think anyone (except Imah) is visiting FS anymore. So, this will be the last post on my precious blog. Sorry to my reader (if there any) but i just can’t handle too many profile. I maybe come back but not anytime soon. Thank you for your loyalty for all this while. My story will continue and i will tell it in other way. Don’t worry. u will see me in the future. Thank you again.
The last standing ovation to Friendster..
Its been a while i have not sharing my beautiful and wonderful life to you guys since there is nothing to be shared for but today is one of the day that have opened my eyes and mind literally. Before that, just want to tell you that me and bunch of cool people (Imah,Tita,Umie,Ema n Deant) go to place near Satok to experienced the real taste of NASI AYAM PENYET (its better sounded with PENYEK). Guess what? Its extremely delicious and finger lickin good (since we used our hand to eat it) although its so spicy but its okay for me. I mean i experienced much spicier than that. Back to the punch chicken, it cost us RM6.50 each. For me its affordable and fit with the taste. So, if you want have one, go to FAMILY CAFE. You are most welcomed. Thanks to Deant for the smooth drive. After that we go to Satok (is it a name for place or building?), to shopping and i didn’t buy anything although i was so jealous of Imah and Tita. I want a new shoes too!! But when i think of shoes i have in Mulu (3 of them) and shoes at home (i owned 2), i think i have enough. Or else i will get up to 100 words from my mum. In the house, i have the most shoes and the most shirts!! They just jealous, maybe. Haha.. its their fault, they buy the pricy one for one shirt, while i can get the most three shirt for the same price and still looking HOT and TRENDY.
Back to today story, i accompany my sister and Linda go to EMBROIDERY MART (in case you wonder where, two stores to the right of JINKI) to pay for the formal T-Shirt order. Inside there, we met an old man aged 68 (according to him) who greeted us well. You know what, he was one of the nicest guy you can ever met. He spend us drinks (100 +) and dinner (fried mee)!!
the 100 Plus he gave to us..
Me, Imah, Umie, Tita and Ema having our dinner at SAJIAN KAMPUNG which is better than IDOLA CAFE (too pricey), LEMON GRASS(nothing special) and ENANG SARI(bad customer service!!).
here some pics we taken while there :
Ema n Imah want to sharing food!!!
Umi n Tita finishing theirs drinks..
Me of course...
Middle Of 2007 - 24th July 2009
One of my favourite (even been called my daughter) cat named Calum is found dead this morning in front of our home in Miri (information given by Jacquelyn). Calum has been one of the cat which listen to what i said and the most adventurous cat i ever met. She probably dead because of hit by car but the last year she lived is she suffered some undetectable diseases. I loved her no matter how you see the way i treated her. She always beside me when i need someone. She always there. May your after life is in peace. Love you.
With her..
One of the unforgetable moments when she slept over her sister,Gudut.
The cute one..
RIP Calum..
23/07/2009 23:26:59 (THURSDAY)
I experienced two feelings today. Lets start with bad feeling. I been caught by guard because i don’t bring matrix card when go to back. Its hits me so hard. This is the first time i don’t bring matrix card, so when i don’t, i been caught by guard! Its pissed me off!!!! The punishment is of course, not applicable to get Layak 1!! This is so wrong!! Urgh!!
Back to the good news. I study just now and i feels so good that i forget to look at time. I study for almost three hours without feeling sleepy!! Before this, i usually will feel sleepy after one hours study. I like!!
24/07/2009 19:27:01 (FRIDAY)
Today is in history. The sign for the end of the world start to emerge. UiTM is on holiday start from 27th July till 2nd Ogos 2009 just because of H1N1!! I mean, if it because of haze (is it stand for ‘jerebu’?), i don’t really care cause we having haze once a year. Now its because of an epedemic virus! Sounds like movie, right? Seriously, this is not good. I don’t feel so good about this. You might happy because you have early holiday but for me its really so bad. Everything you have planned for the whole weeks is tumbling up and down. Its like the north pole goes south. I just confused when i heard the news this evening.I just can’t think straight since i like to planned for the future and when something like this is not on your plan, it just don’t feel right. Of course i expecting that UiTM KS will be quarantine one day but not the day after you expected its! Its just flow so fast. OMG, i start to talk like a fussy girl. Give me one day of thinking, i think i will be okay. This is me. You might think i’m so over reacting towards this but you don’t know what the hell i been thinking deep inside. You just don’t get me!!
p/s: this not for your reading pleasure, its just the way for me to get out of my stressed mind. Ah!!
03/07/2009 2:57:06 (FRIDAY)
Today is the last day i will resting myself to death. After that is a lot of hard works! As I’m listening to lastest single from Kelly Clarkson titled ALREADY GONE, i can’t wait to see and through what will happens in Semester 3. Is it the turninf point of my life? I don’t know. Semester 1 is the semester where i left the old Jackson and then Semester 2 is where i got to feels meaning of fun. I don’t know this time around. The road are so diverse in front of me, too many choices that its more easy to choose wrong direction towards the destiny. Or will i take the usual way which i always take? I don’t know, after a minor failure in last semester, i have to improves a lot this time around, which is :
1. Money Matters – Its been two semester i’m having bankruptcy (help me with the spelling!), i don’t want to have hatricks of the same problem. One is enough. I will tone down the way i’m spending my money on clothing although i loved clothes! Everytime i see terrific clothes, i will warned myself that i already have the same fashion and those in my closet is way better. Or better to not go to the clothing outlets.
2. Too Much Desa Ilmu – Ever since i lived near the gate to Desa Ilmu, my face is one of the most frequent faces. Its not good since its wasting time sometimes. Last semester is truly stopping me doing what i’m doing in Semester 1. This semester, i live further from the gate, i will be a collegeman. You know, kind of person who only exist in the college level except the class of course. I will always at the washing room and my room because that how i spend my life in Semester 1 which make me study a lot because i have a lot of time and really relax mind.
3. Leave Me Alone! – Last semester trully fame-seeking! I want to step down little bit, avoid being the trendsetter and runaway model! I know its sound cocky, but that’s the true.Everywhere i go, especially when i’m alone, all the people will look at me, i don’t know why but i like it. But not anymore. I don’t like the attention anymore, i will love the attention that worth the attention. By just walking towards food courts with all eyes on you is something not-so-worth-its. I want the attention when i achieve something that i happy about it. Not because of piece of crap!
4. No More IF.U.C.K Amy & GaGa ! – I don’t like it anymore! its just don’t fit me. Last semester maybe (since i transformed to my alter-ego Jackson ‘GS’ John) , this year i will be more Eastern. No more cursing unintentionally. Its just not me. It bring me down which almost destroyed my friendship with Ummi, Tita and Rahimah plus myself!
For that, i hope my resolution for next semester will be achieved really well cause there no room for second mishaps. I believe in myself and i believe in God. God bless me.
04/07/2009 3:28:07 (SATURDAY)
Its the day i have been waiting for. Today, me and my sister will have a adventure again! We will departing to Kuching at 8PM using bus! Arghh! Another 14 hours in the bus alone! It will be tiring sometimes and frustating (like the one we have when i’m in Semester 1) but i hope this time around will be full of fun and enough rest. I don’t want to stress myself before i should when i arrived there. Today is the last post i writing from our home because after this i will write from my college.
I’m ready for this adventure starting from 8PM tonight! I’m ready for superstardom and superfallen. Good night everyone! Peace!
05/07/2009 22:22:41 (SUNDAY)
Hello! Its been a long and tiring 14-hours journey from Miri to Kuching. Now i’m at Kuching! A lots of thing have been slashing at me since i’m arriving here though the day ended very well. I’ve met my best friend forever just now. We all laughing all the from UiTM to Everrise to UiTM because we don’t have anything to worry about yet. I’m tired to looking back of what made my day stressed! Good night!
06/07/2009 22:27:26 (MONDAY)
Today is in history! I shave my head bald! I never done that before in my entire life of 18 years! The reason why i’m shaving it all was i’m tired of looking like a pretty cute boy. So, why not become an ugly looking boy? My life too short to experience small things. I want to be everything, feel everything!
Today also the first class of Semester 3. So far so good.
07/07/2009 21:19:34 (TUESDAY)
Hey yo! Its the second day i’m going to class for this semester and i’m bad. In Semester 1, i was known as the first person to come to the class and today for class CSC203, i was one of the few person to come a bit late at 7.50am and then for class MAT149 which start at 2.00pm i come at almost 2.20pm! Its the second time around i come late to class for subject MAT. I was so embarrassed! This thing should never ever happen again! That’s why i don’t want to come back to college if there are any class after that.
12/07/2009 12:15:42 (SUNDAY)
Its the first week i been here in Kuching and most of it was a blast! Yesterday was my first day going out to Kuching to watch ICE AGE 3. The movie was funny and suitable for all ages. Then on the night we sat at the canteen to have a light talk where we having fun. The last time i was laughing that hard was about 2 years ago. Its good to be so relax.
18/07/2009 9:12:40 (SATURDAY)
Hey! Its the second weekend i already been here in Kuching. Before i realize, its almost Raya! How things go so fast! Anyway, last night was a sleepest night. I slept from 7pm to 10pm and continue to slept from 1am to 8am this morning! Maybe i don’t have enough sleep on the weekday so i’m reloaded the sleepness.
Between my sleep, i don’t find peace actually. My roomates (two of them is illegal although they have their own room but refuse to live there.) was making unrespectable noises! As one of the owner of the room, they have to respect me even though i sleep early. Its not that they can’t talking at all when i’m sleeping but please minimize the noise. Someone is trying to have rest here (not to forget to mention, i have flu!). i’m their senior too. Maybe i’m looking like an angelic senior, but please, i’m not! I don’t care if they older than me, but i’m still the one who taste and see everything more than them!
p/s : For one of the roomate, your voice is a horror to me and like a piece of trash. So, don’t think you sing well.
18/07/2009 23:42:49 (SATURDAY)
Its double entry for today post. I have a good day actually. I’m so pleased and proud with the words from Ray. Haha.. His words is so honest but sorry, i’m not really that kind of person you think. I’m bad. Really bad. Haha.. Tomorrow will be catch up day as i have many work undone like 203,149 and 101. Wake me up tomorrow!!
20/07/2009 18:43:39 (MONDAY)
Today is the first day of the three weeks i have been here. No sign of money by PTPTN until today! OMG, i almost bankrupt already! Rumours said that the money will be receive only after Aid!!! This cannot be! Please be tomorrow.
After the class finish today, me and my usual BFF (except Tita) sit down with Ray. I feels good after we talk face to face since the day he wrote about me and my BFF in his blog. Thanks Ray. After that we go to back of Mulu College and realised that the day was so hot although its only at 4.30pm! its feels like 12pm! We straight go to KFC after that to cool down before we are, yes, attracted with the meals. We ended having dinner there. Then we go to Jinki to take our photocopy order and i so pissed off! The book which Umi and Imah photocopy only cost them RM1.30 while i paid for the same book for RM6.30!! The only different about the book was its photocopy back to back while mine not!! This is how its should be photocopied but the one who doing the jobs is hopeless!! OMG!!
20/07/2009 19:32:16 (MONDAY)
Its me again. I cried just now when i listened to a song called PERMANENT by David Cook. Its get very touchy when i read and understand the lyrics. The song is written by David Cook for his brother who had cancer and died just between end of last year or start of this year. The lyrics was so honest and very relatedable(?) to me. I think of my father when i listen to this song. OMG. I’m so sad now. Below is some of the lyrics which is very powerful to me.
“Will you think that you’re all alone today? When no one’s there to hold your hand. And all you know seems so far away. And everything is temporary. Rest your head. I’m permanent.”
“I know he’s living in hell every single day. And so i ask oh God is there some way for me to take his place. And when they say it’s all touch and go. I wish i could make it go away.”
My dad is okay right now and he’s just need to check his health every month. Love you Dad.
21/07/2009 23:20:42 (TUESDAY)
Today is one of the day that will define Semester Three. Its so historical. Not only Kay will make this as lessons but everyone. Salute to Bro Naim and his gang for doing such action to us. I’m not being mean to Kay but please Kay, take that as a lesson. Like what i always keep on my mind, enough is enough. Don’t ever make it twice. Bro Naim doing that for your own good since someone need to wake you up. You have gone too far at the start of this semester (not to mentioned, last two semester). Hope you will be a better person the next time i see you. Everyone will give you a second chance, i believe (since we already have someone to hate for, hehe..).
For the record, me and my gang are not bathing or going back to our college from the class started in the morning till the end of Refreshment Night at 10pm!! I don’t think we will do it again but its will be memorable. How we works really hard during our campus time. Haha.. Like one of my favourite phrases, “THERE IS FIRST TIME FOR EVERYTHING.”
p/s: Kay, i ready to forgive you if you stop being the old bad you.
WARNING : THE LANGUAGE USED IN THIS ENTRY IS NOT PERFECT OR APPROPRIATE TO BE FOLLOWED AND I DON’T NEED ANY OF AMATUER OR PROFESSIONAL LANGUAGES CORRECTOR TO MIND MY BUSINESS.
02/06/2009 0:04:45 (TUESDAY)
What a day! Fantastic! Its a lot better than i imagine. Its packed in our house this year Gawai. A lot of guests come to our house to celebrate its. I guess this is great new beginning for our life in this new place. Hope it as good as we all want. Today , a lot of my friends wish me Selamat Hari Gawai , among them is Hasrima , Mazni and Imah. After all , i’m being remembered during this occassion and my credit for wishing them Aid last year is being paid off. That’s all for today , and let’s see what happen today!
03/06/2009 0:22:16 (WEDNESDAY)
Truth is coming out yesterday! I always curious why the owner of our new home is so much wanting us to buy his house , and yesterday i the answer for my curiousity this while. The answer is out when i visiting one of our long time friends who used to live at the same village with us back when we still in Pujut 8 and now they living in the same block with us. There are creepy things happen around this area before this like one of our neighbours hang it self till death! Spooky don’t you think? Anyway , move on , only today i’ve figured out what does song I’M WITH YOU really mean! It took a very long time for me to get the message! I think this song is about you will always have others with you which is yourself! Amazing masterpiece from Avril.
04/06/2009 1:22:58 (THURSDAY)
Hello! Yesterday is the day where our house is closed for any guest who want to celebrate Gawai , so that’s mean time for stuffing your stomach with the left foods , a lots! My stomach too full until all of its almost come out. Guess i’m going to be a fatty in new semester , again. Last night i’m watching a tv program called MALAM PENGHAYATAN PATRIOTISME KHIDMAT NEGARA and it was oustanding. The performance from the PLKNians is so tremendous and full of 1Malaysia concept that you can feels it. I think it a good way to keep our teens from involving with negatives activities. That’s from my naked eyes view , i don’t know what really happened in that camp although i do hear something that not so good occured there but i will shut my mouth untill i have the proofs. I have some friends who got the invited to joined the camp and all they said is nothing changed to them and the programs is failed. From my point of view , if the programs failed to raised the patriostisme among our teens , at least some of them learnt to be independent and boost their confidence. My little brother will know if he the chosen next year or this year end. Hopefully , if he chosen he will be better man and if he don’t , planned your holidays well , bro. Good night!
05/06/2009 0:53:30 (FRIDAY)
Days keep on moving and here we are , inching to 2010. With just a blink of eyes , you might already in 2020. So much times , yet still so hard for us to fulfill each day with a meaningful things to do. We still wasting our times. There might be someone who is fighting terminal diseases and have so many things to do but time is so jealous of them. Today i said this things , maybe tomorrow i probably still wasting my time. That’s human! What a shame?
07/06/2009 2:20:06 (SUNDAY)
Hello , hello! I’m back as fresh as before! So much things to say because so much things happened in my life lately. First , we get a new neighbour who is three houses from the right of our house which happened to be muslimin and muslimah. Welcome guys! The bitter of this story is , my sister is so anti-Islam untill she can’t get her head right. She accusing the malay is barbeque meat called pork! Come on Sis , how can you accused such things while you don’t even step out from the house in a day? I know you don’t like them , i admit that , some of them is bad and some of them not , like us too , you don’t have to make stupid-thoughts on something you don’t even know. Leave them alone if you can’t live with them. I’m not betraying my religion , but i’m a Malaysian , i don’t want any of ’13 May’ happens again. Enough is enough. Mind your own business is the best for you sis. Next , yesterday me and my other sis , go to Bintang Megamall and i must say this , impressive! I’m proud to be Mirians with this new renovation of Parkson , its getting bigger and better! I always like Parkson compared to Boulevard! Then , i meet my ex school mates. Some of them did remember me , i’m quite surprise since i barely remember their names. I think they impressed with me from how they stare at me , i’m not the same guy they saw in school. I’m different in good ways guys. I like! Maybe in 5 years from now , i’m one of those artist who climbing to the top of the Billboard Hot 100 , ha , dreaming!
08/06/2009 0:07:09 (MONDAY)
Nothing much to say actually. Nothing special , just quite nervous thinking of exam result. Ciao!
10/06/2009 23:54:26 (WEDNESDAY)
Hey! Its me again. Not much to say but i finished RM76 of credits only in 2 days! So stupid!
11/06/2009 21:57:14 (THURSDAY)
Just got my result for semester 2.
ACC107 – ACCOUNTING [B3.00]
BEL260 – PREPARATORY COURSE FOR MUET [B3.00]
CSC159 – COMPUTER ORGANIZATION [A- 3.67]
CSC175 – OBJECT ORIENTED PROGRAMMING [B+ 3.33]
HBU122 – CIVIL DEFENSE II [A 4.00]
IDA152 – MAN & RELIGION [B- 2.67]
MAT105 – FUNDAMENTAL OF MATHEMATICS [B+ 3.33]
GPA : 3.27
CGPA : 3.38
What do you think? Great? Not really but okay for me and this is the kind of result i been expecting , not so bad and not so great. Just so-so. Now, that’s Jack. The dean-list result is so not me. I’ve never been that great in my life. Now i got this result, i will be more motivated. If i got great result, i will tend to forget where i stand. That’s why i never want those kind of result. Its better i got so-so result. Of course people respect you more when you get better output, but i rather want to be down-to-earth guy. When people don’t expect anything from you, that’s when you strike them.
Future planned? Ignored what haters say and get real with myself. Time to do more and give more. Stop bitching around and wasting time. Next semester will be harder than last two semesters. Show time guys, watch for new phoenix to rise from dead!
13/06/2009 2:18:43 (SATURDAY)
Its weekend! Am i down? No, i’m fine but i feel sorry for one of my friend, Rahimah, she must be so down with her result. I can’t help but feel sorry for you. You will be okay next semester girl.I know you can rise up once again or again and again.
Oh yeah, i got an experience which happened to me for first time! Its fainted! Its the very first time i’ve fainted! Its just happened! No warning at all except a minute before its happened when you feel nausea, blur and can’t stand up. I was in the toilet at the time, when i almost finished my ‘business’, the bad feeling coming to me and i don’t how much time after that, i woke up with me lying on the bathroom with my ‘snake’ still out! All i remember was i’m in between life. Dead and life. I feel i was there but actually i’m not. I don’t know how long was in there fainted. After that, i quickly out from the bathroom straight to my bedroom and lying myself on the floor (of course my shirt is dirty, that’s why i don’t lying on beds). I’m in a minute, sleep like there are no tomorrow with my head still feels not good. Hours after that, i checked the condition in the bathroom, guess what? The pipe is not at the condition before the happening happened. My body must be the one to be accused of for that action to happen. Its happen on Thursday afternoon.
After that, i’m starting thinking that it might be one of the wake up call from God that my life is not that long anymore. I’ve started think nonsense like telling everyone how much have i lie to them (Reloader and UiTM’s gang), how will my parents live without me, how will i spend the rest of my life? All of that crossing my minds. Its don’t feel good at all to know you will dead. Let’s just hope its never happened to me again. I got a lots of thing to achieve. God bless me and my family.
p/s : Condolence to my aunty, she died on Thursday also. She’s funny and great aunty. May God bless your soul. Amen.
14/06/2009 1:59:31 (SUNDAY)
With only two weeks to go, i think i do my best holiday like i used to. You know, spending time with my family before i pursue my studies in Kuching or to be exact, Kota Samarahan which will prove my abilties to handle new challenges. Although i survived all of them, that’s not mean that i will dead this time around. I’m confident i will do just fine like before and i just need to pray and believe more in God. Yes, i confessed i’m a bit forgot about God last semester. Hopefully with this wake up (the result, of course), i will be a lot better person with God in my heart. I love you God.
I think i have go very far from the first time around i’m entering ‘campus era’. Froma guy who not confidence with himself to a very happy-go-lucky and not to mention, talkactive guy. From no one to someone. From the weakest to the strongest. I’ve become someone who willing to work by myself to handle a problem. I seen my potential to become a father, haha.. No, i don’t mean to have children or make love things but handling families problem as a leader in my future family. That’s how far am i going from a teenager to a almost adulter who seen everything in himself. This the journey where i got to know myself. This is the journey where i know what high and what low. And i’m just half of the road, i got two years to go before i’m using all of this experience to become a succesfuladult. I believe in myself!
15/06/2009 3:22:48 (MONDAY)
Just a masterpiece words from THE CLIMB to support and motivated my condition right now.
I can almost see it
That dream i’m dreaming but there’s a voice inside my head sayin,
You’ll never reach it.
Every step i’m taking
Every move i’m make feels lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but i
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high
There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle
Sometimes you going to have to lose
Ain’t about how fast i get there
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
Its the climb
The struggles i’m facing
The chances i’m taking
Sometimes they knock me down
But no, i’m not breaking
I’m may not knowing
But these are the moments that i’m going to remember most
Just got to keep going
And i got to be strong
Just keep pushing on.
Remember that Jack!
16/06/2009 1:38:31 (TUESDAY)
Today is not like the other day. I’m usually write any entry before i go to sleep but this time around, i write after i tried to sleep and yes, i can’t force myself to sleep while my head keep on thinking what will happen in the future, will i follow my family choice or pursue my dreams? I don’t know, i can’t make a decision right now cause i don’t where my life lead me. But everything will not come to anyone if he keeps on waiting, do you so? So yeah, basically i have to make a decision one day and i can’t wait for that day to come where i will know how i am using this life well. I hope i make a right, i mean, really really right moves. All of this has been on my mind since i started my puberty. I just don’t want to screw up. God, please help me to make a right decisions for a better future.
17/06/2009 0:02:35 (WEDNESDAY)
Hello people? I’m doing really great today only it spoiled for a couples of seconds, my sis’s Lyn angry cause we didn’t ‘tapau’ for her when we eat at a cafe behind our house’s block. Its scared me though. Maybe next time, sis? Sorry for that. Anyway, i feel my spirit lifted up today. I feel alive again. I don’t know why and how but i feels great and its the kind of feelings that will last forever. I love being with my family. They keep your spirit up and live. That’s a good thing when you have your family, they will never leave you alone, they will always be there for you and they are one of the main reasons why you still breathing. Love your family while you have it!
21/06/2009 1:27:00 (SUNDAY)
Hey, its me again, after its been a while i’m not updating you guys. The stories is nothing i guess. Its just the day to remembered and honoured your dad or father’s contribute and support since its FATHER’S DAY!! Happy father’s day, my hero and my major idol! You know i always loved you. Its so sad actually cause you never tell your real feelings towards your dad. Yeah, i’m one of those people. You can call me chicken, but its still me. I guess there are plenty of people whose just like me. And i have a little advice to you guys, don’t be a coward. Let it go cause i will let it go this morning, yeah! Let’s do this! Happy father’s day to all fathers.
21/06/2009 19:12:49 (SUNDAY)
I don’t feel good actually. Here the reason, my family will have an Astro? Great, huh? No actually. I don’t think i’m happy with the cute-parabola.
First, we don’t really need it. We already have all the entertainment and knowledge from the free television stations, so why asking for more?
Second, its not good for my little brother, Mike. Yes, he is having his final examination of all his secondary school and i don’t think he is one of those people who can handle or manage his time. With the present of our laptops, i have never seen his with his school books or doing homework! So, what would happen to his academically with the present of Astro?
Third, its money wasting! I know my parents try to make all of us happy with the Astro but come on, how are going to pay those bills. With the electricity and water bills plus house payment, i don’t think we affordable to pay those. You know what? The money left in my dad bank account is below RM200 on the middle of the month! How he will support all of us for the rest of the months? I have no idea. Don’t talk about my mom’s salary, its gone in minutes!
Fourth, the used of internet is down to 50%! You don’t have the thrilled to download a video anymore if you can watch its on your television! OMG! So many excuses, but unfortunately the cute-parabola will coming to our house tomorrow! Urgh! I have to adjust myself, i guess. See ya tonight for more!
22/06/2009 14:08:02 (MONDAY)
Yesterday, my family celebrate Father’s Day with KFC! So full that i don’t dinner. Anyway, i finally let it go last night to Rahimah. Thank God she understand my situation. The cute-parabola still not coming yet.
25/06/2009 1:18:05 (THURSDAY)
You know what? I thought today is Tuesday and OMG, its Thursday! How time goes by really fast! Nine days from now, i will start be a fighter! I know next semester will be the tougher ever! I just can feel it. I’m so ready for this i guess. The day i arrived there, i will straight go to the CC to register to get food subsidization and if i don’t get, i’m swear i will be like a boy from Zimbabwe! I ready for that too. All i have to do is to ‘puasa’ everyday! Only eat at night! Imagine that!
Astro thing is strong as H1N1. All of us are so amaze by it, not including me, although i admit i love it. Oh yeah, we just have the electric bill and we have to pay RM66! More than 50% from last month!
26/06/2009 2:32:25 (FRIDAY)
Its freakin Friday! OMG, time really past you by just a blink. Our stories today is the most horrified that could ever happened to me. Yesterday, one of my earphone is dead! Seriously, i just bought it last semester and it dead? Can’t blame others though, that’s made in China. And to spice thing up, my handphone is having BLACKOUT! Yeah, nothing appears on the screen, only a white and bright appears. So, its pretty damn! How i’m i survive my world after this without my handphone? I guess i need a new one and the only time i can get one is like TWO months from now! Let’s hope everything will be back to usual operations cause i have enough!!
26/06/2009 17:29:37 (FRIDAY)
One of a few world superstar and superartist today is leaving us, Micheal Jackson or simply known as MJ, died this afternoon (Malaysia’s time) after having heart attack at his home. He made his name for his great showmanship and killer songs plus the famous Moonwalk has always been one of the most influential person in this world and to myself. I born as Jackson has a multiple personality connection with him. When i was young, i always referred as Micheal Jackson because of our almost same name not because of i have his talent, no way. I always pissed off when someone called me that since the year i grew up, we live in MJ’s life episode of fallen. People insult me with that name. Its quite disturbing though. And then when i was in Form Two, a history’s teacher called me Micheal Jackson to answer her question. She said, “You better know the answer. Don’t be just be known as someone who knows to dance!”. That’s really where i reach my boiling point. Come on, i’m no MJ. Why compare me to this legend? If she trying to make a joke, that’s total a no joke. Its insulting.
So, MJ always be one of the side of me, my life’s drama. To lose him today is one of the most shocked news i ever been read. You know he will someday, but not today. He got sold-out 50 live shows coming next months and to know he dead is such not a news you want to see or hear. Forget about his cases in the court only for today, let’s pray for him and his family.
God bless his soul.
27/06/2009 1:21:39 (SATURDAY)
Weekend is here! With the world still mourning on the loss of MJ, i bet it MJ’s weekend or MJ’s months. Of course we will miss him but we have to let go it someone time. You have your life too.
27/06/2009 2:33:06 (SATURDAY)
Rest In Peace, Sony Ericsson Z610i. You been living with me since 6 February 2007 till now and has been one the most influential things in my life. You shape my life and you will be remembered always. Thank you for your services.
28/06/2009 0:23:02 (SUNDAY)
This Sunday is the last Sunday i will be in Miri before i go to Kuching next Saturday. Oh.. Feels so sad. Can’t imagine how will i bring myself next semester.
To a surprise, my handphone is alive again! Miracle happens! But, of course i will not put a high bar or hope for this time around. Lets just pray it will survive till the end of the year or its third anniversary, at least.
Problem strikes again. The thing which collects all the things we flushed in the toilets is leak! The smell is hell and haunting us. No wonder previous owner of this house leave!
29/06/2009 1:29:00 (MONDAY)
Final week for me! I have come this far actually from the first time i go to Kuching to pursue my way or destiny. Yesterday actually one of the biggest day in my history (kudos to Imah for remembered it to me)! I fully let myself go to continued my studies in UiTM yesterday, which is about a year ago and that change my view of the world completely and i studied the real meaning of freedom and independent. I never thought that i will continue my studies since i said to myself that i’m tired of studies and its about time to look for money. After struggling in jobs (yes, i have more that 2 jobs in 5 months!), i’m telling myself that maybe i’m not ready yet, so why don’t give study a chance. The rest is history! Here i am now. This 4th of July, i will go to Kuching again to have another blast and bloody year which i have in the first year. Its sweet and bitter at the same time. What worse more is the problem hits you one after another you have solved. It really need strength from physically and mentally which when you will learn to make decisions and learn from the mistake and consequently make you more matured.
I don’t know how others facing theirs day in UiTM but for me, i have the hardest. Things don’t just go easy for me since the first day i step my foot on the UiTM’s ground. The worst things have ever happened to me is of course, the day where i apply for help from PTPTN. That’s few days really took my life to thestorm! Everything just not right for me. It don’t ended there, when i finally got the application and when the money supposed to entered to our accounts, i don’t have any in my accounts, before i found out that i have filled in wrong bank account in the application. Since that day, i struggled and put everything else on hold. I do learned from that mistakes though, don’t be cheats by number 9 and 6!
I don’t really remember the things that have changed me cause it don’t really nice to be remembered. But i do remember the part when i lose my activity card (i do make entry about this, flashed back!!). I felt like a bullet just passed through my heart when i was told that they don’t have my card with them! I can’t focus that day cause that card mean a lot to me. It mean hardship and when somebody took it, they like taking all my tears and sweats with them!
With all of the dramas, i learnt a lot and it shaped my to be the new and brave Jackson John! I’m proud of myself and i ready for more (not that i want it but i can feel that next semester is the hardest of them all!).
Get back to the real life, i go to the church today which i know i won’t go for the next five months. Forgive me God. And on the evening, i company my dad to go to E-Mart (big supermarket) near our house. There, suddenly i hear my name is being called! Its my junior! OMG! I leave the school for like two years now and someone remember me and my name! I don’t even remembered her name but i do familiar with the face (of course after a few seconds of flashed back). I don’t really closed to her but i do closed to her friends since her friend got crushed on me. For someone to remember you and your name, you have to be somebody who got brand and its own personality! Thank you guys for remembering me after almost two years i don’t see your faces. Well, i build my own empire okay? It don’t take one year but almost four years! My name shine from the students in Form 1 to Form 5 and even my senior remembered me when i meet them in UiTM. Again, i proud of myself. I made myself a superstar for few good reasons. I’m a silly boy gone to superstar boy!!!
30/06/2009 1:19:31 (TUESDAY)
As the day keep on approaching 4th July, i want to spend my time wisely here cause i don’t sure if i go home on Aid’s Holidays. Its all about the money.
I struggle about my hair, whether i need to cut it or just let it grow longer. Help me!
WARNING : THE LANGUAGE USED IN THIS ENTRY IS NOT PERFECT OR APPROPRIATE TO BE FOLLOWED AND I DON’T NEED ANY OF AMATUER OR PROFESSIONAL LANGUAGES CORRECTOR TO MIND MY BUSINESS.
19/05/2009 0:26:15 (TUESDAY)
Another day in my life and I found its interesting everyday. I love what I have and what I do with it. Today I’m kinda have a blast in my life , some of you might think its “boring” but for me , at least I got a life , I’m wake up at 9.00 something and that’s have been my routine since I’m get back from Kuching. Go downstairs and watch TV and guess what? It’s the first time I’m watching Wonder Pets! Sounds so last year, don’t you think? I love this cartoon. Especially Ming Ming, what not to love a duck who so cute and talkative? And then I watch CLICK starring Adam Sandler, which made me teary. Its remind me to love my family while I still have time to give them my love. I thought this film will be another full of bullshh but hell no. I recommends its to be watch by the entire family. Okay, till tomorrow midnight.
20/05/2009 0:00:53 (WEDNESDAY)
Its the second entry of my diary , guys. Today i’m almost connected to heaven. No. I’m not dead yet. My lil brother cat named Aww is giving birth and i was there witnessing its. Its scary but great , you know? The feeling to see something things get life. Breathe. Anyway , welcome to the world although i’m not sure it will survive since Aww is the not the best mother of all cats we have.
Today , again , my life started at 9.00 in the morning. With the rise of H1N1 virus cases , i’m worried we are towards the end of this world. Will this viruses become the one who banished human being in the earth? We don’t know yet but with almost 50 countries is recording cases and increase rapidly , this is not the worst according to an expert. Anyway , my hope is everyone around me will be doing fine and great. And that’s bring me to an movie which is just ended at TV2 titled DAYLIGHT. What i saw in that movie was when we – human – in trouble , we will be the greatest human in this world. We will be doing anything together which is great. But why only in that kind of situation we will be that angelic? We should do it even we are in peaceful cause that makes human a human. That’s why we are born as a human with brain and feelings. Good night guys. Takes the moral. Chao!
21/05/2009 0:03:38 (THURSDAY)
What’s up people? Yesterday is kinda a bit boring day for me. Anyway , just want to update my activities the day before today. Three of 13 cats we have is here yesterday! Its Kecik , Pama and Dimun. The rest is still in our dearly missed home in Pujut 8. And then there is interesting drama in television around 2PM till 5PM in TV2 and TV3. The drama “Safira” and “Upik Abu Dan Laura” is the type of Indonesian sinetron which will keep me in front of tv for more than 30minutes. In the morning on TV2 there is “Satu Famili Satu Hati”. I know the title is in Bahasa Malaysia but actually its a chinese drama. Its interesting though. Oh yeah , before i signing out , this morning woke up at 9.00AM again but i continue to sleep at 10.30 till 12 noon. Its getting weird! Why 9? Huh.. Good night.
22/05/2009 0:37:01 (FRIDAY)
Sorry for the late. I was watching a movie just now in TV2 named “YESTERDAY ONCE MORE”. It was boring at first before it started to be worth watching. I love how the story end. A big twist. Anyway , yesterday was one of the most adventured day in my life. Me and my dad , John , was trying to bring Hambak to our new residence. Its was very challenging and we have to stop at the side of the road because Hambak is out of the box that we put him in it. And half of the way towards our home , i have to hold him using my naked hand! But , Hambak didn’t struggle as much as he in the box. What i can see in his eyes was he scared and need a protection. I was so thrill and feels good. You know , the feeling protecting your loved ones , that happens to me at that time. Hambak keep on hiding his head underneath my hands. Owh.. What i got from that experience? Other than three scars , i learnt to not put any cat in the box if you trying to bring it anywhere because using your hand is just fine. Okay guys. See you tomorrow for another adventures in life as Jackson John.
23/05/2009 1:42:07 (SATURDAY)
I’m a bit more late than yesterday today. Pardon me. Hehe.. Okay , yesterday started late since i wake up at 11AM. Its all because of not enough sleep. Don’t worry though since there is no good television programmes this morning. Its Friday morning guys. Nothing much happens today , so , i don’t have nothing much to say. Bye guys.
25/05/2009 0:15:04 (MONDAY)
Hi guys! I’m back after missing for couple days. Sorry for any incovenience during that period. I don’t have anything to say actually is the real reason why i’m not writing yesterday. Well , today i’m back again. Today morning i will wake up at 8 to accompany my dad to go to hospital for medical check up. Hope its turns so good and my father is in the better state. I hope the ‘C’ will go away forever from The John. Amen. You know what? I have not so good feelings about my up coming exam result. I worried about it like every seconds i open my eyes. Of course as a human , i want all good things but i’m still living in this world where there are good , better and of course , bad things can happen to you. But i will accept any type of result i will get. If its good then good. I will go for better next time. If its bad , i guess it is a big wake up call for me. I have to quadraple my effort next time around. I can’t imagine how i’m going to face everyone if i get bad result. Everyone is guessing i’m the best competitor and the one to defeat of. If i’m defeated , they will look down on me. OMG! No way!!
25/05/2009 23:56:10 (MONDAY)
Okay , okay. I know we still on Monday and its not because of i have some kind of disease which i don’tremember days. I purposely do this since i’m thinking of sleeping early today.
Today i go to the hospital with my dad to having his blood test. On the way to go there , i have this way of thinking. What if someone is lying on the road looking like an accident victim? What would you do? Me? I will help him after i fully securated my vehicle and bring some tools to protect myself. Yeah! That’s how we handle this kind of situations. You don’t want to be cheated by some road gang who make this kind of trick to cheat on innocent driver. I know this issues is old issues but hey , its getting forgotten. Somebody have to bring this issues back to the middle , at least , to give some exposure to public. Anyway , that’s all for today. Remember , don’t be so naive! Bye.
26/05/2009 23:57:34 (TUESDAY)
What up? I’m back! Today there’s nothing much i can say since today is not that historical at all but anyway i’m still want to update this diary. You know why i’m making this diary? Main reasons is i don’t want to forget everything which is so valuable and memorable but yet i’m still erased it from my memory. Lately , i kinda realize how i’m so forgetable about my childhood life. I barely remeber anything and to put more shame on myself , even my long-lost best friend – Igah – still remember how i was when i was in primary school. I don’t remember that i’ve put a note inside my pencil case saying : “Don’t let Joanna take anything inside this pensil case. She is a thief!”. Woah! That was how funny i am and yet i don’t know i did last time. The only thing i remember was my hard time during that time. Like what? Okay , i tell you. I always go back to home after school with naked feet since my shoes was theft by Jeffryson (yes , i do remember that sh*t) and my monthly school van charges always being taken by , again , Jeffryson. What others?? Oh yeah , how i was never make it to music class since i don’t have any instrument that are used in the class because my family is not that affordable to buy those. I will always outside of the class. And then , how my Chinese languages teacherseparate those who stupid in the class to seat together with , of course , stupid one too. Hello? How are we going to improved if we are helped by those who need help too? Stupid don’t you think? That teacher is the most hated teacher by me. I never like her ever since. Oops! I mentioned her gender. Anyway , back to our top topic for today. By the help of this journal , i wish i have a better memory. When i forget about something , maybe i should refer to this diary. Don’t you think? Xoxo , j!
28/05/2009 0:07:01 (THURSDAY)
Well , we back to our usual air time! Let’s start with my dreamt this morning which woke me up. I dreamt me and my family except my dad go to The Circus Starring Britney Spears. At the time , Britney’s perform If U Seek Amy and i was histerical as hell. I feels great , you know the feeling when you meet your inspiration of your life is in front of you and the unfortunate things happen on the concert is that Britney performed like she performed Gimme More back when she still unstable. That’s dissapointing me as a die hard fans. After finishing her performance , she telling the audience that she needs her dad. That when it hit me! Using the flashback , in the dream , my dad , is dead. I was a hypocrite cause the day he died , i stop myself from crying and pretending that i’m okay and didn’t want to let go of my feelings. A weeks after that , then we go to concert. Hearing Britney saying that she needs her dads make me cried. What i remember was i was saying : “Glad you have your dad when you need them while my dad is dead already.” I’m let go of my feelings weeks after the tragic events. From the dreams , l learnt that i loved my dad very much and i do not want him to go before he felt my success. Plus , if i have something to say to my dad , i must say it now cause he might go. That’s just the drama my brain produced when i’m slept. What if it is real? I think i might shaved my head bald and went crazy like Britney did because i’m not ready for any lose right now. My mental and physical saying i’m not ready. OMG. What a dream? Now move on to next topic. I’ve just watching a masterpiece from Steven Spielberg and productions titled THE TERMINAL on TV2. I give this movie 5 STARS! Its really fantastic. You felt the sincereness from this movie’s actors and at one point there’s a teardrops from my eyes because of one of the scene from that movie. You guys should watch this movie. 100 percent guarantee of you’ll be entertained. Xoxo , j!
28/05/2009 23:16:54 (THURSDAY)
Hye! Actually i want to sleep early tonight , yeah , that’s why i’m early today. Not much to say here except that i might have to do something tomorrow planned by my dad. So , wait for tomorrow then i will update you guys. Bye!
30/05/2009 1:01:59 (SATURDAY)
Got a story to tell you guys! Friday’s morning , my dad bring me to church (event that been planned by my dad) to go for ‘what the heck is happen’ since i have no idea at all what will be happen in the church. Only after i arrived there , i got the message. My dad bring me to a funeral of one of his friends. Well , that’s great since it been a while i haven’t attend any funeral. Not that i want to but it’s the worse thing to happen to everyone , i have to admit. Inside the church , there were some people singing a very sad song for the dead. And the shocking moments in this story was that me and my dad is attending a wrong funeral function! It was someone else! It happen to be that my dad’s friend funeral is replaced to 8AM , not like they planned at 11AM. So , basically , me and my dad have to go since we don’t even know anyone there even the death! OMG! Morals , noticed everyone if you changed the time for any event!
31/05/2009 0:10:03 (SUNDAY)
Yesterday , one of The John is comeback to make our family a perfect one! At last , we reunited!
31/05/2009 22:38:29 (SUNDAY)
Today , of course , Gawai’s Eve! Exciting since we will celebrating its in our new residence and it will bring new thing to experience for us. We don’t know how it will turn out but we hope for the best. We celebrate Gawai blasting this time around and i’m excited but i don’t really have the spirit since we all far away from our village which is about 600+km from here. Anyway , we still have fun , i think! Let’s celebrate!
This entry is dedicated to my dearly and missed dad , John Entinggi , who is the
hero of my life since i’m born to this beauty and ugly world. I was suddenly
thinking of him tonight. Firstly , i was worried about my money which is in
drought situation and my dad was the first person to came out from my brain. He
was the one who responsible in managing our family money - more like an
accountant in our family. I was (almost) cried when i flashed back to time he
was dedicated himself to me last semester. He come from Kuching Hospital to UiTM
just to help me (and my careless-quite-stupid mistakes) to take the letter of
information changing about my bank account (which is carelessly entered by me
wrong number account) to PTPTN office in Shah Alam and then hand it over to Pos Laju
in Kuching. What made this story is touching is my father (at that time) is just
finishing his chemotheraphy session. If any of you know how the condition of the
patients after undergo that session , you feel me. He was from the town go to Kota
Samarahan just to help me. And i admit i was the stupidest person in this world at this
time cause at that time , he was not in my mind. I was only thinking of the money which
will put in my bank account. I was never wanted to know how he feel and did he mind to
do this at his critical time? My mind is loaded with the money and money. Worst of all,
i didn’t the one who wait for him in front of the main entrance beside i was only
give him direction. You can called me stupid for just realize what he has done to me
now which is like 6months+ after the event.
To all the people who read this , don’t do this to anyone. The feeling of regret will
haunt you forever. Don’t misused other people. Appreciate them. Thank them.
p/s : To my dad which is in the Miri Hospital at this time , sorry cause i can’t be there
for you (i’m having my final exam in Kuching). A lots of sorry. Be strong and
please keep holding on cause i want you to feel and see my future success. You are
my inspiration , dad. I LOVE YOU.
18/4/2009 (11.45pm)
Next weeks will be one of the bziest week in this semester. There will be 3 tests(CSC175,MAT105,ACC107) and 1 final (JPA). I think i can do it , of course , with a lots of determination and less of lazy.. and the carry marks will out within two weeks from now and by then i can see where am i stood beside who’s.. i don’t think i can better than last semester.. and i know why.. maybe because of my over-proud and a lot of funs..
